What Loss Has Taught Me About Life.

I think we can agree that 2020 has not been the start of a new decade we expected. And though the pandemic and killer bees scare me as much as the next person, what I wake up everyday wondering is who am I going to lose next. Who will I receive a phone call, text […]

If I had a dime…

… for every time I heard someone say “I can’t wait for things to go back to normal…” I’d be able to afford the amount of canned goods and Clorox wipes I’ve been buying. And don’t get me wrong, I’ve said it too and (not so) secretly still wish it. But the fact of the […]

How Am I Expected To Stay In Recovery During A Pandemic?!

As I settled into my mat this afternoon, my yoga instructor encouraged us all to focus our intentions onto letting go of something we have been gripping onto. I closed my eyes, brought my hands to my heart, and started crying. I was alone and in my bedroom, not at the studio surrounded by the […]

Holi-Do’s and Don’ts

Do ask me how I am feeling. Don’t comment on what I am wearing or how my body looks. Do engage me in conversation about my goals and hobbies. Don’t walk on egg shells around me just because you know I may feel overwhelmed by the food that surrounds us. Speaking of food, DON’T ask […]

What I Truly Gained.

I am a firm believer that time heals all wounds. Riding the wave, waiting for the storm to pass, dancing in the rain; all that good stuff. But let me tell ya, every single time I walk into a doctor’s office, a familiar brush of panic washes over me as I am asked to hop […]

I Wish I Could Diet.

Raise your hand if you have ever felt personally victimized by diet culture! Keep your hands high in the air if you have ever felt even the slightest bit of envy of those who are buying into the toxic, yet alluring, schemes that are popular diets. Is your hand still raised? Because mine is. I […]

Find Your Safety.

This is probably my most vulnerable post to date. But with all of the holiday and end of year madness, there is no better time than the present to lay it on the line and remind the world that we all struggle! Trauma is a beast. A nasty beast. Seriously, like a 5am morning with […]

This Too Shall Pass.

\”Come on, start eating.\” \”Oh you look so good! For a while I thought you were gaining weight.\” \”Are you really sure you want more bread?\” \”Stop shaking your leg at the table, it\’s annoying.\” \”Is that honestly what you\’re wearing?\”  Over the course of 24 years, these are just a few of the statements […]

There Is No Room For Shame On My Dinner Plate.

\”I am thankful for my struggle, for without it I would not have stumbled across my strength.\”  These are the words that keep me grounded throughout the holidays. Every time the last Thursday of November rolls around I feel my eating disorder trying to creep back up from the depths of recovery it\’s been buried […]