Recovery Story #33: It Saved My Life.

I grew up being a runner. Since I was 11 I was taught that runners looked and ate a certain way. As I got older it continued to be reinforced, and in high school, I began restricting my intake. This meant that my body never matured the way it was supposed to. I became a […]

At Any Cost, I Will Be Remembered As More.

In just a few short months, I will be celebrating 6 years since I began my recovery journey. 6 years of hard work, exhausting therapy, body changes, and new opportunities. There have been days that have brought me to my knees and nearly sent me back to the familiar warmth of my ED. There have […]

I Wake Up Everyday.

I in no way chose to develop an eating disorder, but every single morning I wake up and most certainly choose recovery. Every single day I choose that I am not only going to abstain from behaviors that once used to dictate my entire being but also choose to believe in the emotionally and cognitively […]

Connecting With ANAD

This wasn’t my plan.   From the time I was six, I experienced and internalized anger, panic, paranoia, and hyper-reactivity. I became like a pinched balloon, plump, filled to the verge of popping. If any air was let out, it was only enough to be able to seal the knot holding it in. Like that […]

There Is No Room For Shame On My Dinner Plate.

\”I am thankful for my struggle, for without it I would not have stumbled across my strength.\”  These are the words that keep me grounded throughout the holidays. Every time the last Thursday of November rolls around I feel my eating disorder trying to creep back up from the depths of recovery it\’s been buried […]

It Simply Means That You Are Human

We know her name. We dance to her music. We\’ve spent years admiring her strength. But it wasn\’t until just recently we started admiring her for much more. Her unnerving, almost brutally honest transparency about her past addictions and current eating disorder relapse make Demi Lovato a role model that we can all learn something […]

\”This Was The Best Of All Worlds\”

John F. Kennedy once said, \”As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.\” As cliche it is to begin a blog post with a historical quote, this cliche is entirely warranted because of the weekend I just had. The 2017 ANAD […]

\”This Was The Best Of All Worlds\”

John F. Kennedy once said, \”As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.\” As cliche it is to begin a blog post with a historical quote, this cliche is entirely warranted because of the weekend I just had. The 2017 ANAD […]

\”This Was The Best Of All Worlds\”

John F. Kennedy once said, \”As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.\” As cliche it is to begin a blog post with a historical quote, this cliche is entirely warranted because of the weekend I just had. The 2017 ANAD […]

Am I Good Enough?

What does an eating disorder look like to you? A skeletal frame from every angle? This is the image that most people think of. And though most people would not be wrong, they also would not be right. An eating disorder can literally come in all shapes and sizes, so when people try to apply […]