My ED started when I was living in Canada with my host family and got involved in the modeling industry. My manager told me to lose weight even though, in hindsight, I didn’t have weight to lose. It was in that moment everything I had thought about my body turned to doubt, pain, and hatred. I was in a country that was not my own, and beginning a job, being told I was “too fat” to amount to anything.
Gratitude. Gratitude is what got me to where I am today. After living in the outside world where people judged me based on what I looked like for a long time, I came to a realization that true happiness comes from within. So I started working on my inner world by staying open to every opportunity that came to my life as well as looking for many opportunities to meet new people from all over the world to expand my horizons. And most importantly, in hindsight, I realized that it was the illusion of perfection the modeling industry created, that I craved. But I have learned by simply being grateful for what you do have in life, you can begin to heal.
I am from Japan, lived in Canada, and currently live in France.