Looking back, it all began with the anxiety and depression I developed due to a number of changes I experienced in college. In combination with my perfectionism and high-pressure personality, an eating disorder was almost inevitable.
Because of my anxiety, I developed terrible gastro issues and was unable to eat normally. But as an athlete, I continued to exercise as if I had been eating normally. I began rapidly losing weight, my anxiety spun out of control, my self-esteem plummeted, and my gastrointestinal issues grew worse.
Regardless of any of that, I didn’t want to stop exercising. It was my only sense of control and relief, and my body was something I had always been very proud of and was afraid to lose that.
Soon after that, I began an intensive DBT treatment, which completely changed my life! Working with my therapist, learning skills, and seeing a dietitian helped me stay accountable and get back on track to feeling myself again!
I learned that there is so much I want to accomplish with my life and I can’t imagine not giving myself the chance to do it. I want others to see and know that it is possible to fight and to recover and to have your life back again! Recovery is not easy, nobody said it would be, but it is an experience that you will never forget and will teach you so much about yourself and the world around you.
I am an athletically built Latina college student.